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| -Hi kids,
Wow, I am really making this a yearly thing huh? 06-07 now 08 anyways, I am sick as a dog, I have been plagued for the last week, Fever, coughing blood, intense nose bleeds through both nostrils and when plugged it comes out of my mouth and all my joints hurt and my vision is blurred. But aside from that I am fine and dandy
My car is leaving tomorrow.. I am happy and tad sad at the same time. But hell its time to move on to bigger and better.
Anyhow, first semi regular post i guess, I really don't come back here that often and as soon as i do Everything has Changed! Everyone is upgrading and doing the whole "Facebook" look alike thing. which is crazy. There was a lot on my mind but all of sudden my mind has gone blank. I am thinking of new headline banner ideas if anyone has any ideas please do shoot. I'll try to update this more regularly i guess and! everyone has cool new layouts and i still have this one but guess what! I like it! because its classy.. and old no one wants it, its the neglected child.
And for all of you that havent said hi to me in a while! Say hi!
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| Oh man it has been quite a while since i have updated this thing. Well here goes another entry of my life.
My deepest thoughts are deep into the night. Its currently 5am and i
cannot sleep. I have class in a mere few hours. I am sitting here
listening to old school blink and reminiscencing of the good old times
i had with all my friends, back when we had no worries, no
responsibilities, nothing to worry about. Life was good. Now i wake up
from my day dreary haze and see the responsiblties we all must face.
Sometimes growing up is the hardest part of life. If any one is reading
this and you still have time. Cherish the moments that you spend with
all your freinds and family because when you get older you wont have
such luxuries. Sometimes i wish i could go back and enjoy life as a kid
again. I think the problem with most kids are, they are so eager to
grow up and do things that adults do, that they dont really take the
time to slow down and have fun, and be kids.
Its life. And we just have to deal with it.
-Xu
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| Ahh its Homecomming weekend and this weekend is the Rutgers vs.
Pittsburgh game piece of home has come back to me. Today i have
gotten only a few hours of sleep and took a nap. Little did i know i
woke up to explosions, being blind sighted by a building I woke up in a
panic thinking maybe we were being bombed... ahh north korea is finally
getting us back by testing their long distant missle systems and we all
know our NMD system has never worked. The second thing that poped to
mind when i realized that we werent getting bombed and it was just
fireworks were..."Shit did i really sleep through the rest of fall
semester and spring semester? and its the 4th of july?" thank god none
of the above was apparent. So how is everyone doing?
-Xu
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| Alright This fourth of July was pretty good. I went to skyway in NY
with Alex and Jaclyn. Good times. Lots of random stuff but it was good.
We ended up at shoprite playing mafia and trying to get to the roof of
shoprite in NY to try to watch the fireworks. Lots of random mess. I'll
have pictures later on. But anyways. I have this really random song
stuck in my head at the moment, its from a band in bloomfield NJ. My
freind acutally knows the band personally because he grew up with the
singer Ted Leo. The song is Me and Mia by Ted Leo in the Pharmacists.
Here are the lyrics
As I was walking through a life one morning
the sun was out, the air was warm, but
Oh, I was cold
And though I must have looked half a person,
to tell the tale, in my own version,
It was only then that I felt whole
Do you believe in something beautiful?
Then get up and be it
Fighting for the smallest goal: to get a little self-contol
I know how hard you try. I see it in your eyes
But call your friends, 'cause we've forgotten what it's like to eat what's rotten
And what's eating you alive might help you to survive.
We went on as we were on a mission, latest in a Grand Tradition
And oh, what did we find?
It was Ego who was flying the banner, and me and Mia, Ann and Ana
Oh, we'd been unkind
But do you believe in something beautiful?
Then get up and be it
Fighting for the smallest goal: to get a little self-control
I see it in your eyes, I see it in your spine.
But call your friends,
'cause we've forgotten what it's like to eat what's rotten
And what's eating you alive, might help you to survive.
And even the nights, they could get better
And even the days ain't all that bad
And after a week of fighting, as more and more it seems the right thing
But do you believe in something beautiful?
Then get up and be it
Fighting for the smallest goal: to gain a little self-control
Won't anybody here just let you disappear?
Not doctors, nor your mom and dad, but me and Mia, Ann and Ana
Know how hard you try. Don't you see it in my eyes?
Sick to death of my dependence, fighting food to find transcendence
Fighting to survive, more dead but more alive
Cigarettes and speed for livin', and sleeping pills to feel forgiven
All that you contrive, and all that you're deprived
All the bourgeois social angels telling you you've got to change
Don't have any idea. They'll never see so clear.
But don't forget what it really means to hunger strike
when you don't really need to
Some are dying for a cause, but that don't make it yours.
And even the nights, they could get better.
Its a really deep song because its about a guy that has fallen in love
with a girl that he soon finds out that he will never beable to have.
Its not that the girl does not love him back but that she is a lesbian
and she will love him like she does. He struggles to control his
feelings for her around her, he tries to congrol him self. and it is
eating him alive. What keeps him going is whats slowly killing him.
I feel kinda odd at the moment. some random situations are going on in
my life. I am unsure of whats going on. Its one of those moments where
you have this relationship with a person, freindship or what not. Then
they kind of dissapear, you used to talk to them all the time, and then
you find out you really are kind of like a secondary person to them.
They were only here because of someone else the primary person and once
they have gone through its kind of like you go with them. Its kinda
funny, at the moment i dont know whats going on what am i to them and
what are them to me. Its not even like one of those situations where
you can just forget about them turn around and never return again.
because after long days and months of communication you slightly have
grown accustom to the way they are and their presence. When they are
gone you feel a slight void. But anyways enough complaining! I am going
to go dance and frolic in the rain! catch you all later
-Xu
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