| | Alright This fourth of July was pretty good. I went to skyway in NY
with Alex and Jaclyn. Good times. Lots of random stuff but it was good.
We ended up at shoprite playing mafia and trying to get to the roof of
shoprite in NY to try to watch the fireworks. Lots of random mess. I'll
have pictures later on. But anyways. I have this really random song
stuck in my head at the moment, its from a band in bloomfield NJ. My
freind acutally knows the band personally because he grew up with the
singer Ted Leo. The song is Me and Mia by Ted Leo in the Pharmacists.
Here are the lyrics
As I was walking through a life one morning
the sun was out, the air was warm, but
Oh, I was cold
And though I must have looked half a person,
to tell the tale, in my own version,
It was only then that I felt whole
Do you believe in something beautiful?
Then get up and be it
Fighting for the smallest goal: to get a little self-contol
I know how hard you try. I see it in your eyes
But call your friends, 'cause we've forgotten what it's like to eat what's rotten
And what's eating you alive might help you to survive.
We went on as we were on a mission, latest in a Grand Tradition
And oh, what did we find?
It was Ego who was flying the banner, and me and Mia, Ann and Ana
Oh, we'd been unkind
But do you believe in something beautiful?
Then get up and be it
Fighting for the smallest goal: to get a little self-control
I see it in your eyes, I see it in your spine.
But call your friends,
'cause we've forgotten what it's like to eat what's rotten
And what's eating you alive, might help you to survive.
And even the nights, they could get better
And even the days ain't all that bad
And after a week of fighting, as more and more it seems the right thing
But do you believe in something beautiful?
Then get up and be it
Fighting for the smallest goal: to gain a little self-control
Won't anybody here just let you disappear?
Not doctors, nor your mom and dad, but me and Mia, Ann and Ana
Know how hard you try. Don't you see it in my eyes?
Sick to death of my dependence, fighting food to find transcendence
Fighting to survive, more dead but more alive
Cigarettes and speed for livin', and sleeping pills to feel forgiven
All that you contrive, and all that you're deprived
All the bourgeois social angels telling you you've got to change
Don't have any idea. They'll never see so clear.
But don't forget what it really means to hunger strike
when you don't really need to
Some are dying for a cause, but that don't make it yours.
And even the nights, they could get better.
Its a really deep song because its about a guy that has fallen in love
with a girl that he soon finds out that he will never beable to have.
Its not that the girl does not love him back but that she is a lesbian
and she will love him like she does. He struggles to control his
feelings for her around her, he tries to congrol him self. and it is
eating him alive. What keeps him going is whats slowly killing him.
I feel kinda odd at the moment. some random situations are going on in
my life. I am unsure of whats going on. Its one of those moments where
you have this relationship with a person, freindship or what not. Then
they kind of dissapear, you used to talk to them all the time, and then
you find out you really are kind of like a secondary person to them.
They were only here because of someone else the primary person and once
they have gone through its kind of like you go with them. Its kinda
funny, at the moment i dont know whats going on what am i to them and
what are them to me. Its not even like one of those situations where
you can just forget about them turn around and never return again.
because after long days and months of communication you slightly have
grown accustom to the way they are and their presence. When they are
gone you feel a slight void. But anyways enough complaining! I am going
to go dance and frolic in the rain! catch you all later
-Xu
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