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Saturday, June 07, 2008

Sat, 07 Jun 2008 02:35:23 GMT

-Hi kids,
Wow, I am really making this a yearly thing huh? 06-07 now 08 anyways, I am sick as a dog, I have been plagued for the last week, Fever, coughing blood, intense nose bleeds through both nostrils and when plugged it comes out of my mouth and all my joints hurt and my vision is blurred. But aside from that I am fine and dandy

My car is leaving tomorrow.. I am happy and tad sad at the same time. But hell its time to move on to bigger and better.

Anyhow, first semi regular post i guess, I really don't come back here that often and as soon as i do Everything has Changed! Everyone is upgrading and doing the whole "Facebook" look alike thing. which is crazy. There was a lot on my mind but all of sudden my mind has gone blank. I am thinking of new headline banner ideas if anyone has any ideas please do shoot. I'll try to update this more regularly i guess and! everyone has cool new layouts and i still have this one but guess what! I like it! because its classy.. and old no one wants it, its the neglected child.

And for all of you that havent said hi to me in a while! Say hi!

Monday, January 22, 2007

Mon, 22 Jan 2007 09:31:05 GMT

Oh man it has been quite a while since i have updated this thing. Well here goes another entry of my life.

My deepest thoughts are deep into the night. Its currently 5am and i cannot sleep. I have class in a mere few hours. I am sitting here listening to old school blink and reminiscencing of the good old times i had with all my friends, back when we had no worries, no responsibilities, nothing to worry about. Life was good. Now i wake up from my day dreary haze and see the responsiblties we all must face. Sometimes growing up is the hardest part of life. If any one is reading this and you still have time. Cherish the moments that you spend with all your freinds and family because when you get older you wont have such luxuries. Sometimes i wish i could go back and enjoy life as a kid again. I think the problem with most kids are, they are so eager to grow up and do things that adults do, that they dont really take the time to slow down and have fun, and be kids.

Its life. And we just have to deal with it.
-Xu

Saturday, October 21, 2006

Sat, 21 Oct 2006 01:03:37 GMT

Ahh its Homecomming weekend and this weekend is the Rutgers vs. Pittsburgh game piece of home has come back to me. Today i have gotten only a few hours of sleep and took a nap. Little did i know i woke up to explosions, being blind sighted by a building I woke up in a panic thinking maybe we were being bombed... ahh north korea is finally getting us back by testing their long distant missle systems and we all know our NMD system has never worked. The second thing that poped to mind when i realized that we werent getting bombed and it was just fireworks were..."Shit did i really sleep through the rest of fall semester and spring semester? and its the 4th of july?" thank god none of the above was apparent. So how is everyone doing?
-Xu

Wednesday, October 11, 2006

Wed, 11 Oct 2006 19:12:29 GMT

Ahh What the college?

Wednesday, July 05, 2006

Wed, 05 Jul 2006 14:52:18 GMT

Alright This fourth of July was pretty good. I went to skyway in NY with Alex and Jaclyn. Good times. Lots of random stuff but it was good. We ended up at shoprite playing mafia and trying to get to the roof of shoprite in NY to try to watch the fireworks. Lots of random mess. I'll have pictures later on. But anyways. I have this really random song stuck in my head at the moment, its from a band in bloomfield NJ. My freind acutally knows the band personally because he grew up with the singer Ted Leo. The song is Me and Mia by Ted Leo in the Pharmacists. Here are the lyrics

As I was walking through a life one morning
the sun was out, the air was warm, but
Oh, I was cold
And though I must have looked half a person,
to tell the tale, in my own version,
It was only then that I felt whole

Do you believe in something beautiful?
Then get up and be it

Fighting for the smallest goal: to get a little self-contol
I know how hard you try. I see it in your eyes
But call your friends, 'cause we've forgotten what it's like to eat what's rotten
And what's eating you alive might help you to survive.
We went on as we were on a mission, latest in a Grand Tradition
And oh, what did we find?
It was Ego who was flying the banner, and me and Mia, Ann and Ana
Oh, we'd been unkind

But do you believe in something beautiful?
Then get up and be it

Fighting for the smallest goal: to get a little self-control
I see it in your eyes, I see it in your spine.
But call your friends,
'cause we've forgotten what it's like to eat what's rotten
And what's eating you alive, might help you to survive.

And even the nights, they could get better
And even the days ain't all that bad
And after a week of fighting, as more and more it seems the right thing

But do you believe in something beautiful?
Then get up and be it

Fighting for the smallest goal: to gain a little self-control
Won't anybody here just let you disappear?
Not doctors, nor your mom and dad, but me and Mia, Ann and Ana
Know how hard you try. Don't you see it in my eyes?
Sick to death of my dependence, fighting food to find transcendence
Fighting to survive, more dead but more alive
Cigarettes and speed for livin', and sleeping pills to feel forgiven
All that you contrive, and all that you're deprived
All the bourgeois social angels telling you you've got to change
Don't have any idea. They'll never see so clear.
But don't forget what it really means to hunger strike
when you don't really need to
Some are dying for a cause, but that don't make it yours.

And even the nights, they could get better.

Its a really deep song because its about a guy that has fallen in love with a girl that he soon finds out that he will never beable to have. Its not that the girl does not love him back but that she is a lesbian and she will love him like she does. He struggles to control his feelings for her around her, he tries to congrol him self. and it is eating him alive. What keeps him going is whats slowly killing him.

I feel kinda odd at the moment. some random situations are going on in my life. I am unsure of whats going on. Its one of those moments where you have this relationship with a person, freindship or what not. Then they kind of dissapear, you used to talk to them all the time, and then you find out you really are kind of like a secondary person to them. They were only here because of someone else the primary person and once they have gone through its kind of like you go with them. Its kinda funny, at the moment i dont know whats going on what am i to them and what are them to me. Its not even like one of those situations where you can just forget about them turn around and never return again. because after long days and months of communication you slightly have grown accustom to the way they are and their presence. When they are gone you feel a slight void. But anyways enough complaining! I am going to go dance and frolic in the rain! catch you all later
-Xu

Friday, June 30, 2006

Fri, 30 Jun 2006 05:43:07 GMT

Wow today is not my day
I cut my hand from working on the car
The body piece i painted got shit on by a bird as soon as i finished perfecting it
I burned my arm in a Freak cooking accident
My windsheild wiper Decided to snap in half in the event of rain in the middle of the road.
The day is finally over lets see that the next day brings
-Xu

Sunday, June 25, 2006

Sun, 25 Jun 2006 06:47:54 GMT

Headache my throat is sore. Shit just bothers me soo much.

Thursday, June 15, 2006

Thu, 15 Jun 2006 06:21:31 GMT

Tonight is the night! Well its 3:16 am right now I just got home not long ago. Today i am graduating in less then 15 hours. I just cant seem to sleep right now.

Its been a good four years. We have had our ups and downs, there have been countless people i have met that have changed my life forever. And i all i can say is i cant believe it is over. It has past so fast, It was almost as if yesterday that i stepped foot through those doors of high school. I guess i should be happy I am moving on to things bigger and better. All i want to do is Finish school and start my long eventful life!. I cant wait til Med school I cant wait til i graduate Med school. Lets hope we make it through!

Well tonight I had one of the simplest but greatest nights ever. I met up with lots of people watched Dunning try to get the birds nest out of the a's of Pharmacy at CVS. Then I met up with Anna Bannana! and Denise! We hung out for a while then Santos and Dave Ventura and his parents came By far the sweetest people ever! We went to applebees and just ate and talk til they closed! We reflected upon our highschool carrers, and how much we are going to miss this place and each other! I still cant believe how fast times. If i were to give advice to anyone. I would have to say, embrace every moment as if it was the last and cherish everything as if there was no tomarrow. Time goes fast, before you know it you;ll be 80 and have grandchildren. Dont let the best things in life just fly by reach out and grasp them.
-Xu

To all my freinds. I love you all never change and always stay in touch

Sunday, June 04, 2006

Sun, 04 Jun 2006 15:59:25 GMT

I still cant believe i pulled a 270 and almost died in the rain at 1krpms in first gear..... Its only been like a week since it happened. Good thing nothing is dead.

Anyways today Troys Grad party! Lots of booze, heated pool, lots of women what more could you want?! hahaha anyways kids cell it up if you need me new cell 2018432121, or just call me out of sheer boredom people do that as well! Amk feel better. I am back out
Later kids
-Xu

Btw Sick ass song Night Drive by AAR Stuck in my head for the past week!

Monday, May 29, 2006

Mon, 29 May 2006 21:17:22 GMT

Wow, it has been almost forever since i have acutally written in this thing. Its almost as if the only times i feel like writing is when i am depressed. It makes my life seem so bad.Well anyways Its just one of those moods where i feel like just randomly writting about stuff. Maybe adding a few pictures to accompany. Well last night was senior scavenger hunt! It wasnt as good as it was last year. This year it was so down tuned, and i almost got hit 3 times with assholes with out headlights! Well anyways we were all gathered up in the back of pathmark i must admit it looked like the ghetto'est get together ever. Here are some pix

Still dont know who wins yet. But we had the biggest team ever, we had 9 cars! It was ridiculous! I think we find out who wins on tuesday. Anyways the rest of the weekend was pretty boring shot some pool hung out with alot of kids. Lots of people home from school already, pretty much hung out with everyone but kara! Anyways here are some pix of what have been occuping my days.

Theres a picture of me looking all mexican in soot! hahaha. Anyways its pretty much all done! Now time for a BBQ!!!

Catch you all later Kiddoz!
-Xu